THOUGHTS..

Edit/EDIT! 8:56 PM Someone made my day!!! I AM SO HAPPY!


Most of the time I'll always think that I can never have a lone soul. However, the fact that I seek "this person" wherever I go and afterwards, getting upset that I can't have an opportunity to do so that same place, same time, I become very upset and suffer an exquisite pain.

WHAT I GOT TO REALIZE

• I'm being so emotional here..
• BUT, THIS IS MY BLOG and it's my right to say whatever I want whether with regards to my heroic deeds (were there?) or my poignant anxiety.
• I'm open to my beliefs and to others' although whenever I feel free opening them up, not for any "brainwashing or influencing" business but to give a ray of my thoughts.
• When people admire you, don't just be thankful. Ask the reason why for it gives a more satsifying feeling.

Quoted from my May 1 '05 extracted thoughts: "I became a product of life's rigidity. I neglect life when it is usually on its imbalanced state that later leads me nowhere. I usually say to my friends, I'm in love with people. My past can readily explain how I held the attraction I had for those people. I used to be the kind of person that when I like you, I'll let you feel it but very soon I usually end up becoming a human rubberband. I can one day come, the other day I'll go."

Yes, let me call that "unlearning relationships" with people who I used to desire for. And whenever "this person" would remind me of those things, I can't help but to lose my enthusiasm. Last night made me staring at the ceiling and forcing myself to sleep.

A GOOD THING that occurs to me now.... I got the habit of studying. :D