Patterning your life around other's opinions is nothing more than slavery.
Lawana Blackwell, The Dowry of Miss Lydia Clark, 1999
I do not know why most of the time I'll end up arguing with the person I'm having a talk with. I feel like nowadays I become more aware to the things I believe in and how the way they SHOULD be treated. Like Mark Twain said, "Our opinions do not really blossom into fruition until we have expressed them to someone else."
Ok, I'm only human and I'm prone to make mistakes. But that doesn't tell me to stop there. I still do things that will balance out the other. I throw up the WRONG road with some good sand.
And I hate it. Why are some people SO USER-FRIENDLY. They're acting like GODS, but the hell, they're not even pleasant. The way they act are bullshit. I'm sorry for the word.
Just this morning (after recess), my "friend" and I got to see this two people. Hmmm... I used to say words of hell without one of the 2 people knowing. My head gets mental after. But the moment I SAW THE PERSON again, what was on my mind......... "You look funny. A stupid faggot.....Who looks to spare time with embarrassing discovery."
Tell me that I'm mean. I'm just telling what I SEE...... That person gave that impression anyway!
With my current mood... my mood's black. Ahahaha. No kidding. Oh yeah, I'm tired of everything and already at the peak of giving up. One step more, I'll fall and break my legs. But now, I'm brave enough to say I'VE DONE MY PART. I got no regrets with expressing my true feelings. I had always been honest... and whenever I try to hide the truth, it's my way of saving something from big explosion that will affect two people who are so deeply in love wtih each other. Wrong? I don't think so. Now I see no other way but to just continue and let this grow the way IT wouldwant to and not the way I WANT it to. That's life, maybe.
Lawana Blackwell, The Dowry of Miss Lydia Clark, 1999
I do not know why most of the time I'll end up arguing with the person I'm having a talk with. I feel like nowadays I become more aware to the things I believe in and how the way they SHOULD be treated. Like Mark Twain said, "Our opinions do not really blossom into fruition until we have expressed them to someone else."
Ok, I'm only human and I'm prone to make mistakes. But that doesn't tell me to stop there. I still do things that will balance out the other. I throw up the WRONG road with some good sand.
And I hate it. Why are some people SO USER-FRIENDLY. They're acting like GODS, but the hell, they're not even pleasant. The way they act are bullshit. I'm sorry for the word.
Just this morning (after recess), my "friend" and I got to see this two people. Hmmm... I used to say words of hell without one of the 2 people knowing. My head gets mental after. But the moment I SAW THE PERSON again, what was on my mind......... "You look funny. A stupid faggot.....Who looks to spare time with embarrassing discovery."
Tell me that I'm mean. I'm just telling what I SEE...... That person gave that impression anyway!
With my current mood... my mood's black. Ahahaha. No kidding. Oh yeah, I'm tired of everything and already at the peak of giving up. One step more, I'll fall and break my legs. But now, I'm brave enough to say I'VE DONE MY PART. I got no regrets with expressing my true feelings. I had always been honest... and whenever I try to hide the truth, it's my way of saving something from big explosion that will affect two people who are so deeply in love wtih each other. Wrong? I don't think so. Now I see no other way but to just continue and let this grow the way IT wouldwant to and not the way I WANT it to. That's life, maybe.
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