Uh-oh! I got to open something. Shitz.

MY ROOM!

you hold the answer deep within your own mind. consciously you've forgotten it. that's the way the human mind works. whenever something is too unpleasant, too shameful for us to entertain, we reject it. we erase it from our memory. but the imprint is always there...

Oh yeah I got to open an old journal site of mine. It's weird. Very. I dunno. Why are some people so fond of denying? As if I'm one of them! Ummm maybe. I dunno. Yet, ok maybe I just don't want to bring back things that HAPPENED. What for? Though I've forgotten one thing: TO ACCEPT.

The desire to forget every single memory between me and that person that I'm ensnared with right now is simply hard to discard. No matter how unmindful I am with those things that did occur, each single memory still has its own soul that wouldn't perish. All those things have been living inside me for a long time. Yeah, I don't mind still but I got to learn...Yeahboy. I'm thankful and still very for finding someone new that I see very special.

I'm very happy right now. Belated MERRY CHRISTMAS!

• God- Nandyan Ka alam ko. Hindi ko alam kung paano makakapagmasalamat sayo. Simple na lang siguro. Yung ingatan at alagaan ko lahat ng binigay mo para sa akin. Alam ko ang bawat bagay na iyon. Salamat. Gagawin ko lahat para maging karapat-dapat. Ngayon lang ako naging ganito kasaya sa buhay ko. Nararamdaman Kita dahil sa kanila.
• Family- Patuloy kayo sa pagmamahal at pagbibigay. Kung anu ako ngayon, dahil sa inyo. At sa pagtanda ko, kasama ko lahat ng mga bagay nagawa nyo para sa akin. At lahat ng gagawin ko ay para sa inyo. Hindi lang para ipagmalaki ako kundi para din maparamdam ko sa inyo kung gaano ko kayo kamahal.
• Friends- Sorry kung hindi ako nakakapagkeep in touch. Kilala nyo kung sino kayo. 9 years na tayong lahat halos magkakaibigan. Sa mga pumunta sa States, nakakamiss kayo! Sa mga bago kong naging kaibigan na tumulong sa akin (mahirap i-explain), mahal ko din kayong lahat.
• YouKnowWho- Salamat sa mga natutunan ko sayo. Kahit malabo minsan, masaya pa rin. At yun ang tanging bagay na nagbibigay buhay sa bawat araw ko. Alam mo kaya yun? Malamang hindi! Haha! Andito lang ako, patuloy at walang sawang magmamahal.
• AYOS BA? TAGALOG NA TAGALOG!

Off the topic: I'm currently sick. Sore throat (WHAT'S NEW?!). I hope I'll be well soon.