I was lonely this morning... I made something.
I hope tears will perish right away just when the moment I rest my soul to peace and pretend everything works right for me. I can't please anyone, even my own reflection that I see on the mirror.
True happiness for me before was very light. I didn't expect things to work the way I'd want them to. For I know, no matter what I do, they'll always have their way to leave me desperate and so desolate.
Life is cruel. It captivates this innocent soul of mine and acceptance is the only way I can free my soul from distraction.
Life on the other way taught me different things-the three things for survival: dream, love and hope.
I learned that dreaming is mainly composed of two things; the guts to mold what you dream for and the power to make it happen. At least in dreaming, I'm able to get what I want and hold that thing with my bare hands, until I'd want to... Even until forever.
Back to reality, still there are certain things I'd want to REALLY happen. But couple of things permit me not. Sometimes I fear that I myself sooner or later will do an effigy of myself. See, I'm trapped.
Loving... What is it in loving that makes me go crazy and so much in love with this act of loving? I'm not ashamed that I've cried so many tears already and had been hurt for so many times. I remember one day when I asked myself why I was rejected. Another thought came right after and it was, "Didn't I also have rejected someone before?" The answer was YES. I got to know then, that love has a cycle. Whatever it is, we just always have to ride the truck and be ready of any accidents the are bound to happen for love entails a lot of risk.
If I'll be hurt by love this time, I won't curse love anymore. This feeling I feel right now is different. I feel so complete because I've opened my doors for love and now I'm in love and being loved by someone. Now I also could say that there are things you don't have to dream anyomore... There are things already made right for you. I WANT TO TELL EVERYONE right now, I FOUND THAT THING ALREADY...when I finally have found the warmth, security and love in the arms of one special person in my life right now. And I couldn't and wouldn't think of any thing to let that person go.
True happiness for me before was very light. I didn't expect things to work the way I'd want them to. For I know, no matter what I do, they'll always have their way to leave me desperate and so desolate.
Life is cruel. It captivates this innocent soul of mine and acceptance is the only way I can free my soul from distraction.
Life on the other way taught me different things-the three things for survival: dream, love and hope.
I learned that dreaming is mainly composed of two things; the guts to mold what you dream for and the power to make it happen. At least in dreaming, I'm able to get what I want and hold that thing with my bare hands, until I'd want to... Even until forever.
Back to reality, still there are certain things I'd want to REALLY happen. But couple of things permit me not. Sometimes I fear that I myself sooner or later will do an effigy of myself. See, I'm trapped.
Loving... What is it in loving that makes me go crazy and so much in love with this act of loving? I'm not ashamed that I've cried so many tears already and had been hurt for so many times. I remember one day when I asked myself why I was rejected. Another thought came right after and it was, "Didn't I also have rejected someone before?" The answer was YES. I got to know then, that love has a cycle. Whatever it is, we just always have to ride the truck and be ready of any accidents the are bound to happen for love entails a lot of risk.
If I'll be hurt by love this time, I won't curse love anymore. This feeling I feel right now is different. I feel so complete because I've opened my doors for love and now I'm in love and being loved by someone. Now I also could say that there are things you don't have to dream anyomore... There are things already made right for you. I WANT TO TELL EVERYONE right now, I FOUND THAT THING ALREADY...when I finally have found the warmth, security and love in the arms of one special person in my life right now. And I couldn't and wouldn't think of any thing to let that person go.
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I think you need this...
http://jormungandr.online.fr/plaisir/Monthy%20Python%20-%20Always%20look%20on%20the%20bright%20side%20of%20life.mp3
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