Sick..So sick.
Somewhere there waiteth in this world of ours for one lone soul another lonely soul, each choosing each through all the weary hours and meeting strangely at one sudden goal. ---texted to me by my mom
Why is that when I find myself feeling happy(---so happy), my mind will create a battle with it? The next thing, I will find withdrawing myself from everything just because I am not brave enough.
Let me exchange poles and see those people draw themselves away from me. I guess I can accept and adjust right away. I want it more that way. And it is good to be alone sometimes. Yes, it is.
I started chillin' last Saturday night. I got a thermometer. Normal. The next morning, my body felt weak. I had to stay in bed the whole day. Worse thing, fever combined with horrible crap of indigestion hit me. Eww. I felt alarmed that I might suffer dehydration. More water... Plenty of water for me to drink.
While having a text conversation with Av, I craved for doughnuts. Dugsh. She's that generous that she promised a box of doughnuts for me when we meet. Guess what, she delivered a half-dozen yesterday. (Funshots naman tomorrow, ok? Kiddin'.) That's the thing I like about her. She's courteous and the flow doesn't know how to stop.
Right now, feelin' better but I am not yet that okay.
We watched "So Happy Together". A story about a beautiful friendship between two people (a business minded woman and a frustrated gay writer) and their desperate search for their one true love. Fantastic. No need for me to say more. Ricky Lee wrote it and he's one of the Filipino writers I rate highly. When she went home, I still stayed infront of the screen to watch "National Treasure".
I talked to her on phone last night. I guess she's really bothered with my figure. I lost weight and still on my way to get closer to my dreamlike body. Like my mother, she wants my chubby version back. Ano ba talaga? Kill myself? No way. Thousands of men and women from the heterosexual, bisexual and homosexual communities can revolt for they want to delight in my flesh. Let them be satisfied. Stop, kiddin'. No more to narcissism.
3 things that made my day:
1. I told my mom I LOVE YOU via text (mind me, we're under one roof :D).
-I say these words to her everyday but I felt something different this morning. It was a very good feeling.
2. My mom told me she believes in me.
-I do not want to fail her and my dad. Everything will be dedicated to them.
3. Admiring this picture..
Why is that when I find myself feeling happy(---so happy), my mind will create a battle with it? The next thing, I will find withdrawing myself from everything just because I am not brave enough.
Let me exchange poles and see those people draw themselves away from me. I guess I can accept and adjust right away. I want it more that way. And it is good to be alone sometimes. Yes, it is.
I started chillin' last Saturday night. I got a thermometer. Normal. The next morning, my body felt weak. I had to stay in bed the whole day. Worse thing, fever combined with horrible crap of indigestion hit me. Eww. I felt alarmed that I might suffer dehydration. More water... Plenty of water for me to drink.
While having a text conversation with Av, I craved for doughnuts. Dugsh. She's that generous that she promised a box of doughnuts for me when we meet. Guess what, she delivered a half-dozen yesterday. (Funshots naman tomorrow, ok? Kiddin'.) That's the thing I like about her. She's courteous and the flow doesn't know how to stop.
Right now, feelin' better but I am not yet that okay.
We watched "So Happy Together". A story about a beautiful friendship between two people (a business minded woman and a frustrated gay writer) and their desperate search for their one true love. Fantastic. No need for me to say more. Ricky Lee wrote it and he's one of the Filipino writers I rate highly. When she went home, I still stayed infront of the screen to watch "National Treasure".
I talked to her on phone last night. I guess she's really bothered with my figure. I lost weight and still on my way to get closer to my dreamlike body. Like my mother, she wants my chubby version back. Ano ba talaga? Kill myself? No way. Thousands of men and women from the heterosexual, bisexual and homosexual communities can revolt for they want to delight in my flesh. Let them be satisfied. Stop, kiddin'. No more to narcissism.
3 things that made my day:
1. I told my mom I LOVE YOU via text (mind me, we're under one roof :D).
-I say these words to her everyday but I felt something different this morning. It was a very good feeling.
2. My mom told me she believes in me.
-I do not want to fail her and my dad. Everything will be dedicated to them.
3. Admiring this picture..
Btw, that's my dad. I miss him. I love him.
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