Technicolor Line: A New Episode

Thursday, May 27, 2004

There's no window in this place for me to show my weary face..

Last night, my bestfriend surprised me. Hehe joke lang. I just got a message from her via sms and she told me to go out of the bldg right away. We chatted there and then we walked. We then went to their bldg, really a cool place to hangout. We walked..back and forth! We did a lot of kwentuhans actually! She's leaving for Cavite tomorrow. Oh bye bye heehee.

Hey I'm leaving Manila later for Cavite. Finally? Waaaah no comment. Ahm really pissed off. Well I went to school ang just got the certification my dad needs for work.

Collective Soul - "Shine" Give me a word Give me a sign Show me where to look Tell what will I find ( will I find ) Lay me on the ground Fly me in the sky Show me where to look Tell me what will I find ( will I find )Oh, heaven let your light shine down

Nothing's new, except for the fact that I feel so desolate. Can you just believe while typing this entry, I'm crying? Something just happened few mins ago. :( Totally bad. I feel nothing. I feel numb and I feel like I've got no one to reach to. It's not good to think that you don't even know the purpose why you live. I don't even know if my existence is a must here on earth! Sorry but I can't release this pain I have here. You all know that writing has always been my outlet. Writing, writing, writing. How I wish I can write my life. How I wish I can change my fate. Fate? Ok, I really don't believe in fate. But sometimes I have no choice but to still wonder if it's true or what. Bullshit, bullshit, bullshit. I always learn from the world, but the world doesn't want to open its doors to learn from me. I still have myself and I know I can prove a lot of things. But I don't know where to start. I have no drive to push through. I don't even know myself anymore. I've forgotten how it is to live the best way I know and just cherrish each day. But now, each day just passes by as if nothing new and good can happen. I grow and I'm trapped in my own pain.

Waaaaaahhhh I'm being so emotional again. Well, this is my blog anyway! Thanks for the time hehe! I gotta take a shower now. Mwaaah.

(TAGALOG)Gusto nyo bang matakot? Maniniwala ba kayo na shinut down ko yung computer ko, nagshut down naman. Tapos nagsusulat lang ako malapit dito bigla ko nadinig na may pumindot ng button para i-turn on yung computer? To think na ako lang ang tao dito! At nag-open nga siya bigla. Wag na kayo magtanong, dami ng beses na madaming nakakatakot na nangyayari sa'kin. Naniniwala ako sa spirits eh.

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