Technicolor Line: A New Episode

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Just Breathe

I'm really confused. Why things should "stop" just like that. I had a dream (a bad dream! argh) of this moment when I knew I'm no longer in control. WHERE ARE YOU? You know who you are. :( I want to have change. Like my own thoughts would usually say, complete change. Never I was able to make it big. Now to make things simpler---I want a change of heart, mind and soul to be direct.

Taking each situation into consideration, I'm coping up. Actually, destiny is really not a friend. I tried every action to let good things dance using my own tune.

Misery is just staying up so long when I believe it's not its time now. Yes, maybe, just maybe there is something better coming. I hope so...

Off the topic: Two years ago, I used to have a site wherein people can visit and read my own written poems. Down here is a poem I just made this afternoon at exactly 12:47 PM.

A CHANGE OF HEART

Your face is the only thing I envision
For I know it'll share its warmth to me
You never had a moment without your doubting heart
Even if my heart deems to be true

I accept I used to bargain for happiness with you
You never failed to do so I know
You've given more than expected
You know the key to my substantial world

You should but you'll never know
This sudden stop in my world right now
You used to light my way
Where are you now?

It's not easy for me to fight
I tremble and my heart feels guilty
I'm confused why did I let my anger out
All I wanted was to never hide my true feelings over you

I feel so cold right now
I try to sleep on my bed
Memories with you appear so clear
Yet in reality our bond starts to fade

I gladly accepted the call to love
Loving someone like you wasn't hard at all
You were made by my dear Lord up there
Surely you're one of His finest collection

Where am I heading now?
Walking with you is written in my history's pages
Will I survuve and live?
When my past was like to share my life with you

I am not and cannot be perfect
I admit I tried hard still
I cannot do anything, I cannot move on
Now I can promise you one thing

If this love will soon break two hearts
I will never make it happen, let my only heart break
I was made to save you from all rack this world is to offer
Let me sacrifice my own heart for you

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