Why do people have to ask you what's wrong, what's your problem etc. and instigate you to tell it to them eventhough you don't feel like telling? Look, when you tell it, will your problem be solved?! Pathetic. Just like what happened this afternoon. I was totally pissed off.

There are so many things flying on my mind that I would strongly want to just keep to myself. Others try to look what's inside of me, but hey, sometimes it best when you keep things private. All my emotions came out when I got a heart-to-heart talk with my bestfriend in school. Such a relief! It's true that crying cleanses the soul. Right now, I can't say my problem isn't a problem anymore (HAHA. Whatever!), but at some point I can say that now I got peace of mind and heart. Something I've been wishing for a long time. Arr!

The swing of my mood is so hard be pictured. I feel sorry to those people who suffer my current sickness. Argh sorry.

The irrational beliefs that "If I let go... then:

I will fall apart.

Others will fall apart.

Life will be awful.

I will never be happy again.

I won't know what to do with the rest of my life.

Fear of rejection or loss of approval of others: If I let go...

They won't like or love me.

They will judge me badly.

They will never do anything I ask of them again.

They will be angry with me.

There is no one else in this world who will accept me.

Fear of the unknown: If I let go ?

What will life be without my loved one?

What is on the other side of death?

How will I fill the void left by the loss?

What will happen?

How can I survive?

Avoidance of guilt: If I let go they will ?

Never survive the loss of me in their life.

Falter and maybe fail.

Suffer pain and hurt.

Feel badly and possibly turn against me.

Blame me for their problems.

Unwillingness to express true emotion:

You'll know how I really feel and what my real needs are or I'll not let go.

It is more important for me to be macho and strong than to let go and let my feelings out.

If you see how I really feel by my letting go, I will become vulnerable and possibly taken advantage of.

If I let go of my anger I might be able to forgive and forget hurtful, uncaring and painful experiences in my life, and I can't afford to forget these things.

In order to let go I have to be in touch with negative feelings that I never allow myself to experience.

Fear of being disloyal or unfaithful:

f I let go of you, you might feel like I no longer care about you.

If I let go of you, you might believe that I have found others with whom I am replacing you in my life.

If I let go and let you struggle on your own in life, you may feel that I don't care anymore.

I never want you to hurt, so I won't let go.

I must protect you no matter what, so I will not let go.

Lack of belief in self:

I could never survive if I let you go.

I am worthless without you, so I can't let you go.

I can do nothing right in life; I need you so much that I can't let you go.

There is no way they would ever let me continue to succeed if I let go.

I am incompetent and have never been able to make a decision, so how can I let go now?